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- #71 u can call me abe po:)need lang po ng advice. My story goes like this po kasi. i have a boyfriend po. actually, he was my crush since highschool, 2nd year po ako nun tas 3rd yer po sya. I never noticed him at first but one day, his classmate which happened to be my friend as well is lumapit saken. may binigay na letter, and it was a letter from him. so dun po nagsimula lahat. i was amazed by every little thing he do and because of that he made me nioticed him. ngka-crush ako sa kanya. he was my first crush po. minsan ngtetext po kmi nun kaya lang naputol yung commu namin because I lost my cp sa perya. kaya ayun ! nalungkot ako. hndi na kami ngtetext at hanggang tingin nlang. yung feeling na ang lapit lang nang classrooms nyu pero parang ang layo nyo parin to each other. may times din po na parang gusto nya akong kausapin pero kasi whenever he’s around tumatakbo po ako, nahihiya ako e. isip bata papo kasi ako nun. so maybe nag-give up na sya nung summer. parang biglang nag-disappear ang lahat. hnggang sa nag-4th yer sya and i was so sad kc graduating na sya. Days, Months, and a year passed. he graduated highschool and i was left regretting evrything. since then, wla na akong balita sa kanya. until one day nalaman ko nlang na he went to manila. for good? So yun ! i choose to prioritize my studies. and again, days, months, and 5 years have passed. somehow, i thought nkalimutan kona sya, but one day i opened my fb account only to find out a messgae from him. after 5 years ngparamdam sya nako. he asked “hi.kamusta ka na?” cguro iniisip nya kung isipbata paba ako until now or kung tatakbo paba ako pag andyan sya. and then it hit me the fact na yung akala ko i forgot him ay hindi pala. kc biglang bumalik lahat eh. and then to make the story short, destiny allowed us to communicate again. we texted, we chat, caling2x.until he said that uuwi naraw sya dito sa cebu. naexcite ako and he said he cant wait to see me na daw. until yon! bumalik nga sya with a complete different person, nagmature at syempre super gwapo na nya. nung ngkita kami, hndi nya pinalampas ang chance to court me kac actually hinintay ko talaga sya kaya hndi pa ako nagboyfriend kac husto sya ang 1st boyfriend ko at syempre last. then, naging kami. ang saya ko grabe ! everyday being with him feels like an adventure i never want to end. but as the relationship go on, everything went wrong. sabi nya forever na kami pero bakit klangang magbago dba? everything has changed po kasi eh. bigla syang nagbago. kung noon sobrang sweet nya sakin, sobra yung effort nya na sinuklian ko naman. i tried to be the bed=st girlfriend thta he truly deserved, pero parang may kulang. kasi nagbago sya., hindi ko alam kung bakit? kung kelan nagsimul? kung anong nangyari ? why did he have to breakup with me with no reason .YES. gusto nya pong magbreak kamipero hndi naman po nya sinabi yung rason nya kaya ang hirap po. ang sakit. sya yung first heartbreak ko. he left me without a word, without a considerate gesture, ano pu yun ? disappearing breakup with words left unsaid ? ang sakit pop kasi eh. hndi ko papo sinabi sa parents ko and all along they were expecting na okey pa kami. should i stop my illusion na may kami pa. its not like giving up and it’s not like i should'nt try. it’s just like i have to draw the path of determination from desperation. what is truly yours would eventually be yors daw po eh, and what is not, no matter how hard you try.. it would never be.,